bambimonster's blog

hello everyone, i am blogging again. Thoughts are gushing out like a scarlet stream.. let me go slowly, so that i can lay things down in a proper manner.
 
First offf, it had been 3 weeks since the break up. That jerk is living his life with his new girlfriend, while i have found someone i'm really into :p hehe.. can't deny the fact that at some points of my life, i would stop and think about that jerk, and how he has changed or probably he never changed he just did not show me his true color. Ladies out there, when a guy tells you 'u ll be my first and last' it secretly means, i want to get in to your pants. ;) Well he kind of forgot that i was the one who was always there for him from the day 1. Did not care for his looks, yeah his looks are pretty bad last time but to me it was not up until the break up. I guess i was blinded by love. hmm. Well i guess what goes around comes around. He has not gone through life yet, i have been in a relationship precisely from the age of 14. I know more things than him thats for sure, and so my maturity level is way much higher than his. Guys can fake an entire relationship, just keep that in mind dear ladies. ;) they are cunning as wolves. Not all guys though, but in this era, i might say 70 percent of the guys are just like that. One thing I'm pretty sure of is that, he ll regret one day of his decisions. 
 
Tonnes of my friends been telling me that he will. He will one day, I'm pretty sure of it, but it is just too little too late :) well i have got the looks the brains the talent the heart. I can't judge his current girlfriend, but base from what i observe, she wants to own things that belongs to others, low self esteem i suppose. Probably she wants attention, and my ex fell for her. I have to say this, she is pretty easy, well come on, she can just date my ex after he just broke up with me, that shows how low and disrespectful she is towards herself. i would have to pity you dear. I am not trying to make her look bad, it's just based on my own observation. 
 
But i should not blame her as well, my ex also plays a role in all this. He might have been cheating on me for awhile i don't know. He might have been acting while i was there in the uk. i have no clue, but i saw signs, he was being sneaky. I caught him lying to me. He is heartless. He clearly only wants to have fun. He is no more that goody boy i once used to know. Let it be ;) 
 
Time heals the broken heart, and guess what, i feel so much better, and around this new guy, i feel so appreciated and happy. He makes me feel special. God has a reason for removing Rasan from my life. One thing i know, when i was with him, he only made me feel special when i was with him , around his friends, i am actually nothing. huh crapp. yeah!  well I'm not gonna rush things with this new guy. :) just go with the flow i guess. i believe if i involve myself pretty fast, it is more like i am running away from problems. I am stronger than you think, and i most definitely do not believe in rebounds. seriously, it has been 3 weeks and i feel so so much better. 
 
you were once my everything, but now u clearly mean nothing to me.
Thanks for showing me what life is, how men actually are!
 
Love,
Bithiah